Day 6: California

Release & Pray Part I

On July 3rd, the eve of my daughter’s 26th solar return, I was faced with a difficult decision - do I be “mom” or do I temporarily release “mom” and let her fly? 

My Lil Mama and her bestie from second grade wanted to go out to a club. Although I was invited to join them, my body needed some sleep. So, in that space, I had to ask myself, “Self, do you let them go out in Oakland and Uber home, do you go out with them, or do you make them stay home?” 
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It is safe to assume that option two, go out with them, didn’t happen. Since she was there to celebrate, it is kinda safe to assume that option three, make them stay home, didn’t happen either. So, yep, I released my mom hold and let her fly. 

After returning to the Air BnB, I settled in for some much needed sleep and set my alarm so I could be the first one to wish her a happy solar return at 3:14am. Then, off to sleep I went. When 3:14am rolled around, I called and, of course, no answer. They were still kickin’ it. When I didn’t hear from her nearly two hours later, I sent a  text… (Phone still set to Florida time)

Three minutes later, Lil Mama called back and let me know that they were just fine and decided to go out for breakfast. I was soooooo relieved. She proceeded to tell me that she was going to Uber home although it was hella expensive. I gladly offered to go get them. That’s where the story of prayer doubled down and got super real!!

To be continued on July 4.